Sometimes in life, you feel like you sacrificed yourself and gain nothing. Well right now I feel as though I have, yet also have not. I gave up a lifetime of easy goingness for some hardship, then sacrifice my life for, Nevermind, not so simple.

 

First things first, got a few people in my life I really really miss so so much, and yet I can't contact them because... long story... I mean I valued friendship, but ever since young, everone just abandoned me, I'm pretty pissed and I just can't bother anymore and just go alone, and stick. This girl, pharmacy student right, Ivy's her name, I know I make reference in previous post, I don't have anything to hide. I miss her heaps n heaps and I mean bucket loads, and I been doing some pretty crazy stuff to try find her in a place such as where I am now. I try but whatever I'm trying ain't exactly working cos it's just one way traffic. I just want to talk, to you if you are reading this, I made mistakes, I'm sorry. I'm alone, I'm trying to make it one step at a time into this world and it's stupid cos I took things for granted.

 

Second thing, I got a job, in the interim working as a kitchen hand. It doesn't pay too well, but enough to survive on, at least I have some money. Not feeling as broke as before, but still I feel pretty broke as it is. I mean without this job I don't know what I'd be doing. So for the record, I chop chicken, pack some chicken and rice (nasi lemak) and some others like (hinanese chicken rice), and so forth, it's a hell of a job. A lot of standing, little time for drinks, and worst of alll my clothes smell edible at the end of the day. It's a small price to pay to make it in this world. I mean I can't complain, I do get paid after all, and it's reasonable.

 

Thirdly, at least one company did call me up, Telstra no less. They are employing people, and and they need sales/customer service representatives for some of their stores, I got called up for an interview, a screening session no less, trying to find a person who can fit their mindset. I think it went okay so fingers crossed I get called up with some good news.

 

GO3 went fine with the usual mixups and miscommunications (competition starting too early, judges missing and so forth) that happen at most conventions. I was called into judge the Cosplay competition (Cos-play as accoriding to the site and media materials), and had the honour to announce the winning competitors. I mean the competition was tough and alongside my fellow judge Mirai, we had a tough time actually selecting one person who can win the prize at the end of the day, a trip to the Tokyo Games Show. My week thus far has been a little dramatic.

 

My birthday, well I'm leaving that being belated, but I think it's better that way, too much happening, I was broke, so I might organise it for sometime soon. I mean if I organise it for "tomorrow", the saying "tomoorow never comes" does apply unfortunately. So I will orgainse it soon, and those who are invited will receive my invitation by email.

 

At the end of the day feeling rather exhausted, and apologies jf I don't seem to come online as often, I'm flat busy. Time for me to sleep.

 

HAPPY EASTER*to those who celebrate this*