This post is suddenly written in utter lameness and boredness, and sickness of the stupid worldness, and tomorrowness.

Lets get this all straight in plain english. "I am sick of the lamess of this world". Why? I'm not as perfect as I said I am. Better put. I over inflated my ego. I had something special and didn't cherrish it for what it was worth, and now I'm stuck with myself in rather big mess.

Tonight I went out with a friend Kiemi to the city, a gal I met at the previous anime con. Nothing serious, nothing major, just frends hanging out just to chill and relax, I just wanted to take the night off and ease the mind of all the things happening all at once in my life. No home, no work, and seriously having both Uni and Tafe all running at the same time. I'm a sucker for trouble, but oh well, that's just me. Not living at home means no more guilt about what I choose to do, and when, and further more I'm not being watched like a hawk every second of the day, what I do, who I hang with and so on. I know better than to associate with the troubled kinds.

These last few days has seen me watching another friend go through something resembling what I have done, but on a worser scale. Knowing mine is bad enough, hearing theirs makes me want to throw up. Watching another person go through the pain as what I did is horrible, but I see where I have gone wrong. I didn't communcate all that well, as I recall I did what I thought was okay, but didn't see the consequences.

I wear a chain, something given to me, that i cherrish very very much, it means a lot to me. I had to lose it on purpose for a reason, because it wasn't safe to wear it at the time it was given. This saddens me somewhat about my own life, and my choices in the past, irresponseable, dumb and stupid to say the least. Made promises I couldn't even keep, and worst of all, didn't communicate properly at all. *bash head on desk til bleeding*.

So worn out today, 12 hours to go until I have to get an event up and running, no matter the trauma I'm in. I still have a job to do. I made a promise, and I will keep by it no matter what, even if it kills me in the process.

Have all the vests and equipment now hehe.
So off to work we go

.:KrAkPoT:.