A long update, maybe short, but it's been quite a while since I have had an opportunity to actually time to even to log here...

OK well now I think I made a mistake, maybe, well err.. I tried something and didn't have it go as expected, oh well, I guess life goes on. Details, well can't divulge really, something really really silly, but still none the less it was worth a bloody shot. Say if I did it again, I'd shoot myself in the foot, so no. Once is enough.

A week long of birthdays has gone without a hitch, not saying that there is one I would like to celebrate, in an ideal world, but for now I guess things are the way they are. Clinton, Nixon, J.F.K, made mistakes and they ruled nations, not that I can get away from the fact I did, but yes, mistakes are inevitable, so long as I know where they are, and plug up what I thought I was impervious to that's not a problem. I can't say now what I have done, people already know what I did, and what news travelled, and how far, I'm curious.

I do believe I have someone attempting to stalk me and try charge me for rape. I'm upset and hurt by some turn of events. A phone call out of the blue, sounded like someone I used to know, I can only speculate, and without any further evidences and a 'withheld number', that leave me with little trace. So here I'll say it, once loud and clear. "I have never dated a 15 yr old, had any indecent dealings with one, and been in any relationships in the past year". Now that's off my chest.

Never mind, if you don't get the above paragraph, you need not worry about it,  even I don't care too much about that, I just hope it was a bloody prank call. Life is such, with random people calling abusing others. Yet if this is a declaration for greater happenings, then I'm ready enough to take on the challenge, and if it this person is the one that is meddling with my past, I'd be rather upset, but will carry on no matter what.

Sometimes I just wonder if this fight is worth fighting, is this where I need to learn a new technique or skill to overcome this situation, or sit out and watch it pass over. Sometimes I could write down the past into a book and erase it away, or write a name down in a book and make certain peoples not exist, like 'Light' in 'Death Note', but I that borders too close to fantasy that it probably doesn't exist.

Can I give up my hopes and dreams, no. Can you give up your own hopes and dreams, probably not. We would be like machines if we did not have any, even still dead (from society, from self, or really dead dead).

I guess it ends here for now...

...HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

.:KrAkPoT:.